I should have known, and perhaps I did,
but chose to ignore the engine’s
rev when it sounded louder without aid
than your words at the top of your voice.
I would always come second
to some thing you found far more precious,
far more worthwhile and gorgeous than I-
and that was tolerable- but the consumption,
that welded grip on your heart it had
held my heart back from you for it could not compete.
I will never shine that bright,
will never purr so smoothly from your touch
or alleviate your stresses and
take you places that you have never been-
Exhaust was the only thing that she and I could share with you.
I would have loved you, unending,
warmed your heart like no one could
if only you had let me,
but I was never enough.