I wish I had your courage, my muse,
to inhale the fumes, to taste the victory
of the misery that consumed the life in you.
Once I tried, but my efforts thwarted,
led me to a second time, still not rewarded
with the end result I desperately wanted.
But could I be just like you in the end?
Successful upon my third attempt
to gain step on my quest for dying breath!